First I felt the prodding of my heart
It took a little time, but then I began to start
Seeking to know you, for who you are
I began to see every time you reached out to me
Your longing for me to see, the life you had for me
I remember when I first felt your presence
The evidence that I was yours
Your still small voice, I came to adore
Your whisper that would begin to pour
Over my heart, how much you love me
The way you slowly transformed my life
These thoughts made me stop to realize
What I’m truly thankful for
Our first love



Today my mind has drifted on thoughts of my own personal weakness. Remembering back when I first surrendered my life to Christ. What a mess!
The thought that caught my attention this morning was weakness, and I realized the power weakness had over my life. I realized my weakness has the power to turn into one of two things. My weakness can be turned to strength, or my weakness can make me hard inside, which is like fools Gold. In my past I allowed my weakness to harden my heart, giving me the impression of a renewed strength. Anger hid my weakness and gave the appearance of how strong I really was! This defense to my weakness worked at times, but long term was destroying my heart and person. Dealing with many insecurities due to childhood experiences, I found the only way to survive, was to put on thicker skin, like they say! The thing I didn’t realize was every layer of thick skin I put on, was going directly over my heart. After so many layers, the heart begins not to feel, and when something did penetrate, I found other ways to cover my weakness. Alcohol certainly seemed to do the job. You can begin to see my point about hardening the heart, hardening our heart makes it sick, and once it’s sick, it only gets worse in time.

This is one of our enemies biggest temptations he places on us, and the reason is because of one of Gods promises. When we place our weakness in God, He promises to make us strong. A real spiritual strength, not a false empty strength that comes with chains. I will talk more about this in a minute. Let me continue to talk about how satin uses our weakness to separate us from God and take us far away from God. Hopefully you saw the Movie Batman, The Dark Night. In the movie the evil Joker knew that Harvey Dent was Gotham’s hope, The White Knight, so the Joker knew if he could damage Harvey’s heart, he could possibly turn him bad and his plan worked, turning Harvey Dent into Two Face. Isn’t that how it works in all of us, when difficulties and pain come, the choice we have to allowing them to harden our hearts, allowing anger, pride, putting on masks, listening to lies and allowing them to turn to rage in our hearts.

Weakness is such a vulnerable characteristic we all have. Most of us have been vulnerable around other and have found it not to be safe, only a cause of pain and rejection. This is what leads to temptation and to harden our hearts and putting on masks.

In Gods word it says!

2 Corinthians 12:9 New King James Version (NKJV)

9 And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

Isaiah 40:29
29 He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak.

Psalm 119:28

28 My soul is weary with sorrow; strengthen me according to your word.

Philippians 4:13

13 I can do everything through him who gives me strength.

Isaiah 40:31

31 but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.

So the answer is to bring our weakness to Him, repenting of our pride and ungodly anger, praying for Him to turn our weakness into strength remaining humble and waiting on Him. God bless you! I hope this spoke to you as it did to me!



Did you start out running in Christ
Did you fall deep in love, giving all your might
Did you believe, he called you to fight
Against all the enemy came to destroy
Did you put on your full armor and learn to deploy
The prayers of a warrior and use your sword
Did you find fellowship becoming of one accord
Did you serve Him and take your stand
Freeing others, the demons you reprimand
Did you climb mountains and overcome
Did you win battles and limp from some
Did you wrestle with God at times
Did He reveal himself and deliver you from lies
Did the enemy tempt you, and you went astray
Did you repent and with Him you stay
Are you struggling like all of us
I’m so glad we can discuss
This walk we are in
What is your walk like



I sit here waiting on you
A place so dear and true
The place I first heard your voice
As you quieted my thoughts, my heart rejoiced
From the peace that came over me
There, came your still small voice
Speaking kindness to my damaged heart
It was here, you would start
To show me who I am
You gave me beauty, from the ashes
You took my my sin, by the lashes
That exposed, your devotion and love
You revealed your amazing presence
The sweetness, the essence, of your love
You captured my heart, changed me from within
You became my invisible friend
You unveiled faith to me
You gave me eyes to see
You guided me to the door, I knocked
You opened, and my life unfolded
To the process of knowing, you
Truly love me