Loss of desire, no motivation
The sensation
Is of climbing a never ending hill
I only want to lay down and be still
Slow my thoughts in moderation
The picture is of a sloth on vacation
Is it hope deferred, is my heart sick?
Is it a trick of my enemy?
Or do I simply lack the energy?
Repeating the same thing day after day
Am I needing Him, should I pray?
The well is dry
There’s a growing desire to cry
The feeling to just lay down and die
Do I cry out, asking why?
I think I will sit in His presence
A continual worship, concession
He is the only
Answer to my questions

1 Kings 19 New International Version (NIV)

Elijah Flees to Horeb
19 Now Ahab told Jezebel everything Elijah had done and how he had killed all the prophets with the sword. 2 So Jezebel sent a messenger to Elijah to say, “May the gods deal with me, be it ever so severely, if by this time tomorrow I do not make your life like that of one of them.”

3 Elijah was afraid[a] and ran for his life. When he came to Beersheba in Judah, he left his servant there, 4 while he himself went a day’s journey into the wilderness. He came to a broom bush, sat down under it and prayed that he might die. “I have had enough, Lord,” he said. “Take my life; I am no better than my ancestors.” 5 Then he lay down under the bush and fell asleep.

All at once an angel touched him and said, “Get up and eat.” 6 He looked around, and there by his head was some bread baked over hot coals, and a jar of water. He ate and drank and then lay down again.

7 The angel of the Lord came back a second time and touched him and said, “Get up and eat, for the journey is too much for you.” 8 So he got up and ate and drank. Strengthened by that food, he traveled forty days and forty nights until he reached Horeb, the mountain of God. 9 There he went into a cave and spent the night.

God works in our weakness, He is constantly transforming our lives. If you feel the season will never end and it seems like it’s going on forever, I might suggest that God is putting you on a fast track to change. There are reasons some people go through more than others and it usually has to do with the amount of work God is doing in you. Some of it can be attacks from the enemy to try to hinder the works progress. Some can be the fact that you are fighting against God in what He is doing and so it is a prolonged work like that of Jonah.

The only solution to feeling better is finding yourself at the feet of Jesus. look at what God said to Elijah (All at once an angel touched him and said, “Get up and eat.”) Bread and wine is the answer, communion with God! Notice how God provided the bread (Word of God) The water (Presence of God) then Elijah rests only to be woken by God to do it again, eat and drink! Travel then eat and drink again. When you are on the journey of God and He is walking you through many different types of challenges and situations to grow you spiritually, you will not make it unless you choose to spend time with God through the process called being filled! When your thermos is empty you must go to the fountain to fill it!


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