IDENTITY

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Identity, is one of the most deep complicated subjects. I recently had a conversation with someone very close to me about their purpose in life. The conversation was anxious, in desire for change! I recently did a post on desire, but this takes desire to an even deeper place. Even though we have many desires, desire does not claim our Identity. We must decide who we are before we can even sift through our desires.

Sometimes we can want things simply because it is popular and it is a direction others are taking. In helping the person I asked a question, what separates you from everyone else? Then I answered the question because I know this person well. I said the thing that separates you from your friends and others is the fact that you think through your choices and usually you make the hard decisions that require sacrifice! This quality is your best quality I said! This quality is a given blessing and is a part of your Identity. I then said but you have to ask yourself are you going to listen to your friends or are you going to continue to be what separates you from the crowd?

Everyone is searching for Identity! The only true place to find it is through Christ! The more we walk with Him, the more shall I say, we become ourselves! Honestly we start out so lost. Through a process we slowly begin to find ourselves through our Identity in Him! Praise you Lord, thank you! This transformation can’t happen without worship and His word, quiet time with Him and meditation.

We have an inner battle taking place between the flesh and the spirit and this is what causes us to want to go the same direction as the world.

Matthew 7:13-14 [Full Chapter]
[ The Narrow and Wide Gates ] “Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it.

Moving towards Christ and struggling through the process of following His word is the only way to find your true Identity. Learning sacrifice and conforming to His will, is when you the clay, begin to take shape! Your Identity!

Isaiah 64:8 [Full Chapter]
Yet you, Lord, are our Father. We are the clay, you are the potter; we are all the work of your hand.

God bless you in your search for your true Identity!!!

Blessings to the New Year! It’s your year!!!

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BROKEN BRIDGES

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Relationships seem to begin well, after some time they can be very complicated. Two different people trying to connect with each other, with the goal to become one in each other. So often what we find is conflict and then it goes unresolved. Once so excited, talking on the phone for hours at a time, never seemingly getting enough of each other. So what happened? How did things go wrong? What changed? What led to saying things we will regret! the cold shoulder, anger, tears, resentment, and hopelessness!

Can it be repaired? Do I want to repair it? He changed, she is not the same person. I’m no longer attracted. I cant forgive. I cant forget. My heart is hard, I cant go on! So few avoid this from happening, so few live the dream we all start with. Our vision of a relationship in our mind, that ever so quickly crumbles.

Ephesians 4:32

Be kind to one another, tender-hearted, forgiving each other, just as God in Christ also has forgiven you.

This scripture is very challenging when it is the last thing you feel like doing. Our battle is against principalities. We are called to choose and not live by our feelings.

Ephesians 6:12King James Version (KJV)

12 For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.

Principalities want you to work off of feelings rather than love. Feelings are the hook! Like a fish caught fighting for its life. Caught by the bait of pride, fear, insecurities, lies, anger, and fooled by the shinny lure of misunderstanding! If only we could see to the heart like God. I believe it was purposed for us not to see to the heart. I believe we are purposed to battle with feelings. Because our battles begin in the mind and if we are convinced in our mind the enemy has its hold.

Might I say relationships are not about feelings but a choice, a choice to love. A commitment to do what is right regardless of the other person. The choice to love when you feel the person doesn’t deserve your love, as we do not deserve Gods love.

When we walk by our feelings it is like a blind man feeling his way around in the darkness. We must walk by the word of God which is the lamp to our feet. At first the feelings we have are not good but as we walk by faith and the word of God our sick heart heals and feelings that were dead come alive in Christ. So we must walk by faith not by sight or feelings.

Men are so built to lead but what happens when the women starts giving honey do list, or telling her husband not to do this or that! The man puffs up his frustrations, because you know, he is the man, he should lead! He struggles with disrespect rather then understanding relationships are about serving, Remaining humble, being gentle, leading by softening his character. Not listening to the negative thoughts about her in his head. Instead renewing his mind to the mind of Christ.

When a relationship is lost and there seems no hope to fix it, I can tell you there is always hope. You must start to dig up the bad that you sowed. So that you can begin planting new seed. because Gods word says you reap what you sow.

Dig up your hard heart, resentment, and anger. Dig up the lies in your head. Put on Christ and begin by sacrificing. Sacrifice your time, give up things to God and your relationship without him or her knowing. Serve them, seek to understand the true heart of their bad behavior, rather than living in misunderstanding. Care about how they feel, choose to care for them as you desire to be cared for, even if you don’t feel it. Most people act badly when they are hiding hurt. The crazy thing is if we take the time to find out whats really going on we can usually fix it quickly.

Ephesians 4:29

Let no unwholesome word proceed from your mouth, but only such a word as is good for edification according to the need of the moment, so that it will give grace to those who hear.

Philippians 4:6

Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.

Proverbs 4:23

Watch over your heart with all diligence, For from it flow the springs of life.

Philippians 2:3

Do nothing from selfishness or empty conceit, but with humility of mind regard one another as more important than yourselves

I am a work in progress, sharing my walk with you through this blog!

BROKEN

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I see the reflection from the shadow of your broken heart
I see the pain from my rejection of your brokenness
The world casts away the pearls covered in soot
Only adding more layers to the rejection you have known
If the world only knew their state of brokenness was even more
They might consider how to care for you
Their shadow overlaps yours, so you know
Now excepted for all that you are
I choose to stand in the gap of the two shadows
pouring light and love on yours
To care for your heart and mine at the same time
I choose to mend the broken heart

I realize how irritated I get at times with someone who is extremely needy or not as smart, someone who is not as neat or organized, someone who is always negative, sad or just a complete downer. Addicts, drama queens, lyres, weak people! As if I’m so together or at least I can fake it better than most. Have I hardened my heart so much? Has pride taken me to a dark place disguising itself as light? When yet, I am just another dark shadow. Don’t get me wrong I’m going to some extremes in this post to make a point. Our we missing it?

Psalm 34:18 [Full Chapter]
The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.

As a Christian am I not suppose to make myself low and how low? Lower than the weakest of them? Meaning care for the broken! Not that I haven’t, I have preached at rehabs and ministered to many different types of people but how irritated have I gotten at times?
What is the state of my heart? If I am to model Jesus, should I not get close to the broken? Should I not take greater care?

Job 4 New International Version (NIV)

Eliphaz
4 Then Eliphaz the Temanite replied:

2 “If someone ventures a word with you, will you be impatient?
But who can keep from speaking?
3 Think how you have instructed many,
how you have strengthened feeble hands.
4 Your words have supported those who stumbled;
you have strengthened faltering knees.
5 But now trouble comes to you, and you are discouraged;
it strikes you, and you are dismayed.
6 Should not your piety be your confidence
and your blameless ways your hope?
7 “Consider now: Who, being innocent, has ever perished?
Where were the upright ever destroyed?
8 As I have observed, those who plow evil
and those who sow trouble reap it.
9 At the breath of God they perish;
at the blast of his anger they are no more.
10 The lions may roar and growl,
yet the teeth of the great lions are broken.
11 The lion perishes for lack of prey,
and the cubs of the lioness are scattered.
12 “A word was secretly brought to me,
my ears caught a whisper of it.
13 Amid disquieting dreams in the night,
when deep sleep falls on people,
14 fear and trembling seized me
and made all my bones shake.
15 A spirit glided past my face,
and the hair on my body stood on end.
16 It stopped,
but I could not tell what it was.
A form stood before my eyes,
and I heard a hushed voice:
17 ‘Can a mortal be more righteous than God?
Can even a strong man be more pure than his Maker?
18 If God places no trust in his servants,
if he charges his angels with error,
19 how much more those who live in houses of clay,
whose foundations are in the dust,
who are crushed more readily than a moth!
20 Between dawn and dusk they are broken to pieces;
unnoticed, they perish forever.
21 Are not the cords of their tent pulled up,
so that they die without wisdom?’
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God deals with this subject as he speaks to Job! Job now finds himself very needy! Job was at the peak of the mountain and now at the lowest pit. (10 The lions may roar and growl, yet the teeth of the great lions are broken.) This really speaks to me about the strength I think I have! It could be taken at any moment and how then would I be. (2 “If someone ventures a word with you, will you be impatient?) I believe God is adding to the already amazing Job! He is allowing him to experience what only the broken and needy know ( PAIN )! Will Job now have more to give to those in need, those more needy then him? I believe the answer is yes. Does God have to bring us to the same place of Jobs brokenness for us to gain the same wisdom? I don’t think so. All we need is something to provoke our hearts to the point of asking God to help us in this.

COMING OUT FROM THE CAVE

logoMany Christians struggle with some kind of cave experience. The kind of cave I am talking about is the cave of the heart. Most of the time we enter this cave without even knowing it. The cave could have come from childhood pain when we first learned to enter into this cave. This cave is where we hide what we don’t want to feel or look at. It is the cave where lies form the walls. It is the cave of dry tears.

Most of the time we walk around without knowing the cave even exist, because the cave even hides itself from us. The cave becomes something we enter without even realizing it. Its is the cave of our protection. Inside this cave forms many protections and wrong behaviors that hold us captive.

These wrong behaviors and protections do not protect us at all, just the opposite. You see because the human heart reacts to rejection, hurt, pain, abuse, fear, insecurities, self doubt, poor self-esteem, anxieties, brokenness from learned behaviors. We can seem trapped with repeated failures. Things about our broken state that want to attach our identity to them. In the cave we form the wrong kind of protections, strength, pride, arrogance, humor, silence, and anger. We form anything that can fool anyone, even ourselves about what is in the cave of our hearts.

There is a death taking place inside us, keeping us from living the way God intended for us to live “free”! Alive in Christ! We can only come alive in Christ if we are willing to take a deep look into our hearts where we live in fear of the pain of this world. It means we have to be honest with ourselves and vulnerable with God and even others. Trusting God in this may be very difficult for most. If you want to experience healing and freedom from anger, broken relationships, fear, and lies about yourself you have to allow God into the cave of your heart, you protect with all that you are. We have to allow God through prayer to help us walk out of this cave.

Jesus Raises Lazarus

38 Again feeling ·very upset [deeply disturbed/moved], Jesus came to the tomb. It was a cave with a large stone ·covering the entrance [L lying on/against it; C Jews typically buried their dead in caves with stones covering the entrance]. 39 Jesus said, “Move the stone away.”

Martha, the sister of the dead man, said, “But, Lord, it has been ·four days since he died [see 11:17]. There will be a ·bad smell [stench].”

40 Then Jesus said to her, “Didn’t I tell you that if you believed you would see the glory of God?”

41 So they moved the stone away from the entrance. Then Jesus ·looked up [L raised his eyes] and said, “Father, I thank you that you heard me. 42 I know that you always hear me, but I said these things ·because [for the benefit] of the people here around me. ·I want them to [L so that they might] believe that you sent me.” 43 After Jesus said this, he cried out in a loud voice, “Lazarus, come ·out [T forth]!” 44 The dead man came out, his hands and feet wrapped with ·pieces of cloth [strips of linen; graveclothes; C the dead were wrapped in strips of cloth], and a cloth around his face.

Jesus said to them, “Take the cloth off of him and let him go.”

JESUS waits at the stone of your heart and asks you to roll away the stone and allow Him to call us out of the dead things in our lives. Every area of your heart that has been hurt, that fears, that has believed lies, the part of you that hasn’t known life for some time. He asks you to take courage and to put on faith trusting Him to do what he came to do, to bring beauty from ashes.

Isaiah 61:3

Expanded Bible (EXB)

    and to help the ·sorrowing [mourning] people of ·Jerusalem [L Zion; C location of the Temple; 59:20].
I will give them a ·crown [garland; headdress] to replace their ashes,
    and the oil of ·gladness [joy] to replace their ·sorrow [mourning],
    and ·clothes [a garment] of praise to replace their ·spirit of sadness [discouragement; heavy heart].
Then they will be called ·Trees of Goodness [or Oaks of Righteousness],
    trees planted by the Lord to show his ·greatness [glory; C manifest presence].

TO LOVE AGAIN

The place I go to hide my fears
Deep inside I hold my tears
The lies are welcome here
A cage for the broken
Not a word here is spoken
Only loneliness and pain
Where the heart slowly dies
Where all my pain hides
The curses passed down
From UN-healed hearts
I’m walking out of this dead mans tomb
Not for me but for you
The selfish heart held so true
I choose to risk, to love
To rise from the dead
To love again

http://youtu.be/mENmbZ5Ikto http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_detailpage&v=mENmbZ5Ikto

I want to talk about the song link above, knowing it is not by a Christian band. Gods spirit moved me by the lyrics. Follow me down to the valley below, spoke to me about the peaks and valleys we walk through as Christians. The valley below means there is work to be done before the mountain peak. My David don’t worry this cold world is not for you. I thought of God speaking to the line of Jesse, king David during his toughest moments as a man of God in the valleys reminding him where he was headed to the mountain of God and in His presence. Moonlight is bleeding from out of your soul come to us Lazarus it’s time to go, spoke to me of the pain when light hits our soul with truth and the dead man Lazarus walks out of the tomb and the glory of God shines from our hearts outward. When we take courage and walk our hearts out of the tomb. God bless!

God bless your day may the Lord call the dead from their tombs and bring life and healing to those who are suffering. www.fullofrosesinspirationals.com

YOU WALKED WITH ME

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(You walked with me) was written at a time of reflection. looking back at my walk with God and seeing where He was every step of the way. I know at times it may seem like God is far away or that He is too busy dealing with bigger problems than yours. I can tell you that the bible says that God is Omnipresent! He is everywhere, all the time and He is with each and everyone of us in the deepest most intimate way. Our God is a Big God, He is capable of doing many things that are beyond our understanding.

God pays so much attention to us, He has counted the number of hairs on our head. So faith must take us to a deeper place in our hearts to see God. Our hearts are the door way to Gods kingdom. The only way to see Him is to go deep into your heart and there He will be sitting beside you ready to speak wisdom, love, forgiveness and promise. This life and it’s testimony is all about will you believe God and the scriptures? The reason we have scriptures are for the testimony of other believers and the word of the living God. When we look at the people of the bible and the incredible stories of faith that play out, we can identify with them in so many areas. We can see their struggles with sin, their doubt, their disobedience, their trials, times of great defeat and great victories, times of great loss and times of incredible blessings, most of all their lack of faith or their tremendous courage and faith. We get to see the transformation that takes place like with Apostle Paul for example. A man persecuting the church to become one of the most powerful men of God!!! (You walked with me) Each of them in their own right will and have said those words ( You walked with me)!!!!

24 Enoch walked with God [C he had a close relationship with God; Heb. 11:5–6]; one day Enoch could not be found, because God took him [C like Elijah (2 Kin. 2:11), he did not die].

Stories like Enoch the bible clearly says he walked with God. Imagine if you respond to Gods call, trusting Him, walking it out with Him in faith. Regardless of how perfect you are. Just as you stand, to choose to walk with God and respond to His calling. Joseph walked with God, his own brothers ripped off his coat, poured goats blood on it, threw him into a pit, sold him into slavery and left him as dead. Joseph was thrown into prison on several occasions until God brought him to his purpose. You see reflection on our walks are very needed to see where we have come from and where we are going. This life takes courage and prayer but it is the greatest journey one could ever go on.

My apologies I haven’t posted in some time. I have been very busy lots going on. I will try to post more often. I hope you are blessed by my blog. May your walk with Him be deep and fruitful. If you are still waiting to respond to His call, I encourage you to know the only true living God Christ Jesus!

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